Enough?

 In the cinematically spectacular movie musical, “The Greatest Showman”, a song “Never Enough” is featured in a scene with opera star, Jenny Lind. Re-watching this movie whilst seeing in the New Year enabled me to consciously connect the lyrics with the character’s own plight of never quite being enough. This started a spiral of related thoughts around living life in the shadow of our self-inflicted comparisons and how by doing so, we can never quite match up. That can include our writing.

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I remember being disheartened after a writing conference one year when a guest speaker confidently assured every person they could apply the techniques being modelled and write as brilliantly as the examples they had stepped through. Meanwhile, my head was in a muddle as I realised with startling clarity I did not (and never would) approach my creative process in the way they recommended for achieving “next level” penmanship.

Was that it? The “never enough” moment? Was it possible that no matter how hard I worked at my writing, it would never quite pass muster?

Have you ever been there? Ever felt you’ve been weighed and measured as an author and found wanting? Have you ever been tempted to knock off those infuriatingly persistent characters and put the pen down permanently?

Yeah, funny thing that …

Have you also found stories you’ve determined to abandon forever have this annoying way of prising their way back into your life? Characters you thought you’d discarded somehow keep popping up with new challenges for you to unravel? I know just what you mean.

But is it enough?

Despite the bumps and bruises of disappointment and insufficiency acquired along the way, I have come to realise that even though I may never be a Pulitzer Prize winner, not one of those authors could ever be me. (They might be heaving a sigh of relief at this, lol, but it’s true.)

I’m not suggesting we should stop investing in our craft or honing our skills. It’s important to receive constructive input, pursue learning, and reach for excellence. But if we’re constantly measuring ourselves against other authors, we can all too easily focus on what we are not, and get in the habit of rehearsing our failings and dismissing our strengths.

But speaking of writing conferences … at another event a guest speaker reminded attendees of the importance of being faithful with the writing gift given to them—whatever that gift and its purpose looked like. 

If our primary goal is to emulate or “meet the standard of” a particular writer, we will never be enough, because we will only ever be ourselves. But the thing is, we’re not just in this writing gig for our own gratification, and that should make a world of difference. Through Him, our voice IS “enough” to pen the creative works we alone have been gifted to write. Our voice. Our purpose. Breathed to life in the “now” timing of the Holy One. 

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So wherever this post finds you in your writing journey, I’m officially giving you permission to reflect on and rehearse your strengths, your writing wins (big or small), and remind yourself that it is through your voice the words you carry will be birthed into this world. Embrace it.

Rehearsing the wins (with Mazzy Adams)

Adele Jones writes fringe and near science fiction for young adults, historical fiction, poems, inspirational non-fiction and short fictional works. Her YA novel, Integrate, first book in the Blaine Colton trilogy, received the 2013 CALEB Prize for unpublished manuscript. As a speaker she draws practical parallels from social issues, faith and humanity, for meaning in life’s journey. For more see www.adelejonesauthor.com